The only boy who I would love like this...

is D_ _ D_ _ _ _. It's been six years and my feelings for him are still the same since the day I met him and came to know him. Sigh.

I walked into a room where a dining table was filled with good food and people. All I can see were women, all dressed in white, who were all ogling at him and asking him who was he with, does he have a girlfriend, if yes then where is she, if not, why doesn't he have one--- all of those questions. I sat a little behind him but still beside him on his right. The women were still interrogating him. I inched a little forward and for some reason I touched his right hand with my left and he held it. We held hands together, the boyfriend-girlfriend type of holding, and we were looking at each other and smiling, as in wide smiles, haha. He introduced me to these women and they had on their faces a sneering and doubting look as if they were thinking, "Why is he with a woman like that??? She's not pretty naman and as if meron siyang "k" over us. Why that woman?". But it didn't bother me at all. They could contort their face all they want but I have the one thing that they don't. And that's the person holding my hand right now. He introduced me to them, "Guys, si Edz." He didn't have to say what I was in his life. It was understood. Aside from the holding hands and the wide smiles, an aura of happiness and contentment overflowed from the two of us, that's why the girls didn't need to confirm if we were in a relationship or not. They felt we were really in love. No more questions.

We stood up, waved goodbye at the women and went outside. While walking towards the door, I felt sooo content and overjoyed! I've been longing to be with this elusive boy after how many years! I finally have him! Oh blissful state, how I love thee! :) The feeling was unexplainable. It was a mixture of happiness, anxiety, bliss, excitement... Oh man ibang klase! Basta ang sarap ng feeling! :) When we got out, it was already dusk. We were still holding hands, bodies close to each other, hearts pounding on our chests, as we walked down the stairs a few steps and sat down. He pressed his face to mine and we hugged. We didn't kiss but the hugging meant also a longing from him, that he wanted to have me for the longest time and finally, we were together.

Sadly, nagising ako sa katotohanan na panaginip lang pala ang lahat! Grabe! But it was weird, it felt sooo real! Especially when we touched hands and he pressed his face to mine. And thennapaisip-isip ako, baka naman kaya may sensation sa pisngi ko dahil matagal na akong nakahiga sa side na yun at kaya malamig ang kamay ko dahil naipit siya habang nakahiga ako at nakulangan ng dugo.

Huhuhuhu. :( Well anyway, I wanted to write this down because the feeling was just overwhelming! Haha! And I don't think he'll know because he wouldn't bother reading this or do anything related to me, haha. But if he will know about it, wouldn't it be great if he can comment on this or email me and tell me something nice about this blog? I'm not expecting anything amazing, just a simple 'thanks' will suffice, hehe.

Ooookay, I think I just exposed myself a bit too much, but hey, I do love the guy. :)