TODAY, I CHOOSE:
To be HAPPY!!! I started the day with breakfast with my parents and my niece and nephew! :) Papa cooked danggit, sinangang, fried rice, omelette, bacon, and prepared coffee, yey!!! There's so much more to be happy about in life! No time to be sad!
To NOT be bogged down by my emotional turmoil! I have so many things to do, lalong lalo na itong consultancy job ko! Waaaah! Today is the deadline and I haven't even finished half! So yes, WALANG PANAHON PARA MAGMUKMOK!
To be at peace and just let go... masakit at malungkot, kasi isang buwan pa lang ang lumipas. Pero majority ng friends ko are telling me to focus on myself; to make myself whole again; to live my life the as a single entity; to re-discover who is Edz. Sabi nga ni Mito, Edz 2.0. Now, I'm excited to to the things na hindi ko magawa before nung kami pa ni Martin. I would go to museums, hike up mountains, go on field excursions... so many things to do! I shall make a list to take my mind off the break up and make myself whole again.
To continue to love Martin and be happy for him whatever he chooses. Hindi ko naman matatapon ang pitong taon at apat na buwan na pinagsamahan namin. Much in the same way I choose to love Kat, deeply. And until now. Ganun talaga eh. To move on, it's not okay to forget the people you have loved. But to accept na hindi na kayo, pero mahal mo pa rin sila. Ibang klaseng mahal na yung mananaig. Like a longing and accepting kind of love. And that you have shared with them the best and worst moments of your life and those are slivers etched in your long-term memory.
I choose to be happy and to be Edz 2.0. And I'm excited to do this.
