Today's Thoughts

My health condition's fluctuating today. There are times I feel okay, then I feel sluggish, then I feel alive, then I feel weak... Hay. Hirap nang may lagnat/sipon/ubo/sinat. Ewan ko ba. Immune system is down.

I've been playing this song of John Mayer since yesterday and it's so fitting for what I'm going through right now.

Hearbreak Warfare

John Mayer

Lightning strike
Inside, my chest to keep me up at night
Dream of ways
To make you understand my pain

[Chorus]
Clouds of sulphur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare

If you want more love,
Why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
Why don't you say so?

Drop his name
Push it in and twist the knife again
Watch my face
As I pretend to feel no pain, pain, pain

[Chorus]

Just say so

How come the only way to know how high you get me
Is to see how far I fall
God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me
But I can't break through at all.

It's a heart, heartbreak

I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight
Let's just fix this whole thing now
I swear to God we're gonna get it right
If you lay your weapon down
Red wine and Ambien
You're talking shit again, it's heartbreak warfare
Good to know it's all a game
Disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak, heartbreak

It's heartbreak warfare
It's heartbreak warfare
It's heartbreak warfare

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