Today's Thoughts

Late ako pumasok ngayon kasi masama pakiramdam ko pagkagising ko. Masakit lalamunan ko at medyo kumikirot katawan ko. Hanggang ngayong 7pm, masakit pa rin lalamunan ko at palagay ko lumalala na kundisyon ko. Baka bukas lagnatin na ako nang tuluyan, Pupurgahin ko na lang sarili ko ng Berocca.

Kanina, tumawag sa akin ang butihin kong kaibigan at mayroon siyang ibinalita sa akin na maganda at nakakakilig na balita. Syempre secret kung ano ito. At pagkatapos nagkaroon din kami ng diskusyunan tungkol sa current relationship ko ngayon. Ayun. Nakakapanghina pag-usapan. Hindi ko na alam ano gagawin e. Nagugulumihanan na ako sa mga nangyayari at sa mga pangyayari. Ayaw ko sanang sulatin ito sa blog dahil napaka-bukas nitong blog ko sa publiko. Well, hindi ko rin naman alam kung may nagbabasa ba talaga nitong mga entry ko. Pero gusto ko lang maglabas ng saloobin; ng mga nararamdaman.

Hindi ko alam kung dala na rin ito ng pagod o dahil magkakasakit ako kaya hindi masyado gumagana utak ko. Pero wala akong nararamdaman na pagkamuhi o pagkalungkot sa mga nangyayari. Kalituhan at kahinaan meron. Pero lungkot o galit, wala. Parang normal na araw lang ito. Normal na walang nangyayaring espesyal, walang nagtetext na espesyal, walang naiisip na espesyal. Wala lang. Trabaho lang. Day-to-day activities ang peg. Parang walang pinagkaiba sa dati.

Ang weird. Mali ba itong nararamdaman ko? Ano ba dapat gawin ko? Sa ngayon ito na lang muna kakantahin ko:

Half of My Heart
John Mayer

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
Free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been
Then you come crashing in, like the realest thing
Trying my best to understand all that your love can bring

[Chorus]
Oh half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That I can't keep loving you (can't keep loving you)
Oh, with half of my heart

I was made to believe I'd never love somebody else
I made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself
Lonely was the song I sang, 'till the day you came
Showing me a another way and all that my love can bring

[Chorus]

Your faith is strong
But I can only fall short for so long
Down the road, later on
You will hate that I never gave more to you than half of my heart
But I can't stop loving you
(I can't stop loving you)
I can't stop loving you
(I can't stop loving you)
I can't stop loving you with half of my

Half of my heart
Oh, half of my heart

Half of my heart's got a real good imagination
Half of my heart's got you
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That half of my heart won't do

Half of my heart is a shotgun wedding
To a bride with a paper ring
And half of my heart is the part of a man
Who's never truly loved anything

Half of my heart
Oh, half of my heart
Half of my heart
Oh, half of my heart
Half of my heart
Oh, half of my heart

From: MetroLyrics