2015 and other (sad) thoughts

It's 2015.

I am not excited.

Why?

Well, I "welcomed" 2015 with a busted 1 terra byte hard drive, with my RECENT thesis files  all in the damn laptop drive. I was broken. I was broken. I AM broken.

The guys at PC Express in ATC did a software retrieval of my files. And it was all for naught. They could not detect my HD even if it was entering the BIOS interface. It is not a software problem. It is a hardware problem with them saying the files are in the "bad sector" and is need of major retrieving (i.e., opening up the HD itself and tinkering with all that metal).

I called ISS-EYAN and asked for a ballpark figure. They continued to ask me how big was my HD and told them it was 1 TB. Apparently, if the damage was software-related, the price of retrieval was 10,000 pesos. However, if the damage was hardware-related, guess what the price tag is...

At maximum, 20,000 pesos.

I knew mine was something of a hardware problem.

I broke.

I AM broken.

What breaks me is all the recent updates I have put in my thesis manuscript --- that damn thing that made my life miserable for more than four years. The graphs. The photos. The figures. The write-up. All of them updated. All of them retrievable, but effin' expensive.

I feel so sad.

Usually, New Year ushers in new beginnings; the chance to right what was wrong the past year; a fresh start; a clean slate to reinvent yourself and make positive changes. For the past two years, I was happy. Very happy. I felt that something BIG was in store for me.

But as I started this year, problems befell on me. The pressures of work. Losing my files. The pressures of thesis and grad school. Not to mention of getting married. But this one doesn't really bother me.

Sigh. I pray that I'll be able to see the good things that happened last 2014 and the things that are to come this 2015. There are plenty, I know. And one of them is being promoted at work. Higher position, higher pay. But then, expenses will also increase. At least, this is a good problem.

Let's see what else... Well, I travelled to many places for the past two years and will continue the same trend this year. I've met a lot of people from all walks of life, taught them science, and other things.

Ugh. This is not yet the time to discuss my accomplishments to make me feel better. And also, I've forgotten about them. I wish I could've blogged about it so I would always remember it.

How I wish I'm so rich that 20k is just peanuts to me.