I need you Lord

Dear Lord,

I am in total distress right now. I don't know what to do anymore. But I know that every time I write to you, I feel better. Thank you for making me feel that way.

I am calling and begging for help from you. You know my deepest thoughts, desires, and problems. You are the only one who can truly remedy and calm my anguished self. Sigh. I don't know if there's a way out of the problems I'm facing right now. I just want to disappear and not feel this way anymore. What happened to my optimism??? What happened to my enthusiasm towards life??? So this is how it feels like when you get overwhelmed by problems. They become too big, too foreboding, it crushes your life and laughs on your face. It's like my orbitals are all full and every electron that wants to attach to me, wala na, tumatapon na. Haha sorry Lord hanggang todits ang geek ko. Well I guess I just want to make myself laugh. And what better way to do it than talk to you! :) Sigh. I love you. Thank you for all the blessings you've given me. They are abundant and priceless. Just thinking about them makes me feel loved and blessed and I think they serve as reminders of a full life that I'm living. Maraming salamat po.

Lord, teach me to count my blessings. Open my eyes to the wonderful graces you've showered me and my family. May I not see my problems as a burden, but rather as a gift from you, to make me feel that you still care for me and that you'll forever love me. Thank you :') I've written you numerous times, be it in my notebooks, my blog, on a piece of paper. I guess it's my strongest way of communicating--- writing. And you've never failed to bring me happiness, joy, and contentment. I love you Lord. Thank you.

As I finish this entry, I feel relieved and light. It's amazing how your powers work in as fast as five minutes, even sooner! Wow! It sure beats any panacea ever created. Thank you for making me feel this way.Ang galing! Even if I don't see you, your presence is felt, it's really amazing. Oh how I love you Lord, thank you. Thank you. Thank you. :)

I love you. Thank you. :)

x_x

Nahihirapan na ako. Pagod na ako. Malapit na akong sumuko. Hindi ko alam kung ano nang gagawin ko. Nagpatong-patong na ang mga problema ko. Hindi ko na kinakaya. The feeling of sadness and despair overwhelms me so much that I just want to die. Literally.

Sukdulan na.

:')

Ito'y kantang nilikha ni Mr. Ryan Cayabyab at kinanta ng San Miguel Master Chorale. Isa na ito sa mga paborito kong OPM love songs. Ang sarap ng pakiramdam kapag mayroong mag-aalay sa iyo ng napakagandang awitin na ito... Maikli subalit punung-puno ng emosyon :)


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collage of me going to Benguet

I took these photos while going to Sinipsip, near Natubleng, Buguias, Benguet. No post-processing involved! :)