Power Overwhelming! I feel so ALIVE!

The power of the Holy Spirit is just so overwhelming.

Today was round two of the LSS. Yesterday, I was still doubting God and kept thinking about science and religion. Now it all became clear to me. I choose to believe in God, because in my way of thinking, science and religion can be fused. Even if someone would not agree with me, I would accept their opinion but nothing can make me change my mind. I do believe in God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit. The Holy Trinity. I choose to believe in God because I choose to think about God--- that He is my savior, He is THE GOD.

We were baptized in the Holy Spirit at the seminar and images conjured in my mind, images that if I were to think about it on a normal day would not appear. There was a force, an energy that was signaling my brain to think about these images. The feeling was real too. If there was an epinephrine rush that made my body excited and tingly all over, it was because my brain signaled my adrenal glands to secrete those hormones. Why? Because a force/energy was telling my brain to do it. And this force/energy was the Holy Spirit.

Grabe! Now I am a believer! A while ago the Gifts of the Holy Spirit was discussed to us and here are some examples: Gift of Tongues, Gift of Prophecy, Gift of Interpretation, Gift of Wisdom, Gift of Knowledge, Gift of Faith, Gift of Discernment. These are but a few gifts that can be received. I just don't know what I received. I got slain by the Holy Spirit, a term used if the priest prays over you and you just collapse suddenly. Check out healing masses, this is a common sight.

It felt like the Holy Spirit was engulfing my soul, my being. I felt warm at the same time cold and tingly. I pictured images in my mind and it was, again the word I overly use in this post, overwhelming! My facilitator, Pia, said that the Gift of Tears is also a gift from the Holy Spirit. While praying and reflecting, I cried until my eyes hurt but it won't stop. When I was slain I was crying but I did not bawl. The rears just flowed from my eyes to my ears and mouth. My body remained static and I felt bit numb. Again, images flashed across my mind--- images of the Holy Spirit, sunrise, mountain tops, caves, fields of green, and guess what, are you ready for this? the image of GOD, his face... HWOW! This sounds too much pero totoo! And when I saw it, I started to cry even more, it was like reaching the climax of an emotion and you can feel everything, the feeling of joy and ecstasy! The feel of the sun's rays touching your skin, the wind blowing beneath your hair, the light that is so powerful yet you are not blinded...

Sarap magsulat ng mga emotions...hehe! What was even more overwhelming, I got appointed to be an assistant coordinator for next year's LSS! Out of the 81 participants, I was one of the three chosen to be an officer of the class--- a chance to serve the Lord better and be filled by the Holy Spirit! Grabe ang sarap ng feeling to be much closer to God! And I can feel that my fingers keep on typing and typing the words as my brain continues to search for the right words to type in, asteeeg!

I can't stop exalting the Lord, His love is just so overwhelming! And because of that I feel so alive! I feel alive and great and I know that whatever happens in my life, it is God-given... And He will always be there for me. God's love for me is unique...

Doubting God...and other thoughts

I had my first round of Life in the Spirit Seminar (LSS) today in our village parish, there's a round two tomorrow. The seminar was all about the following topics: God's Love, Salvation, New Life, and Praise and Worship. Of course, when attending seminars such as these, there would be always a song and dance repertoire taught to the participants. When I was watching and trying to join in the song and dance, I felt awkward and felt foolish... Parang hindi na ako game. When I was in highschool, I would gladly oblige and join in the fun. Heck, kami pa nga ng mga friends ko yung naglealead ng pagkanta at pagsayaw.

I just don't know what came over me. I guess I should have done this a long time ago, when I was still game. Was it because of age? I was starting to notice the change in my behavior lately--- starting to doubt other people about their credibility, seeing that everyone has an evil hidden agenda, afraid to help out because of the "exploitation" that might happen, being CYNICAL about everything. Hwow lahat negative. Grabe 'no? Hindi ako ganito dati! And I hate it! I hate having to think about these things but I can't help it. Everyday I meet new people, grow relationships, get to know more about a person, and I suddenly become cynical and doubtful. Is this person out to get me? Is s/he about to take advantage of my friendly nature? Am I about to be duped by someone who I trusted so much? Grabe, nae-eeks na ako sa ugali na ganito. I was forewarned by my brother about this, and he said not to fall into this trap. Yes, it's a trap. I don't want to live another day, thinking about people who are out to get me and exploit me...

About doubting God, when I started to probe into deeper science, I began to think about all the things the Bible is preaching. It say things about how the universe/earth formed, how man was created, the seven plagues, the staff of Moses, the pass over of the Israelites, the big tidal waves, etc. I believe that stories like these can be backed up by scientific evidence. Take for example how the earth was formed---through the big bang theory; how man was formed---Darwin's theory of evolution; the staff of Moses--- it was just a snake that can stiffen itself when held in a certain part/position; the water of Nile turned into blood--- it was red earth/clay that in a certain time of the year, it deposits itself in the river Nile. And the reason why the water that Egyptians drank became red was because river Nile was the source of their water; tidal waves/ pass over of the Israelites on the Dead Sea--- caused by the nearness of the moon to the earth. See? Majority can be backed up by Science.

But of course, there's that never-ending debate about God's existence. My favorite argument was the one proposed by St. Thomas Aquinas. He was able to reason that for an object to be moved, there must be a mover, and that mover is God. I realized that through God natural things happen, get my drift? For the gases and the solids to combine, a mover must be present, a strong energy must come from somewhere, and that energy MUST BE GOD. Read Angels and Demons by Dan Brown. In that novel, Science and Religion was fused together--- in the molecular level. If you want, visit CERN.com and see.

When I took confession today, I discussed all of these problems to the priest. God has given me that priest to be able to convey His message to me. This was what he said: God made us intelligent and made us to logically reason things out. I tried to logically sort things out, and as I reasoned further, things fell into place. I know what I need to know about God, and nothing more. God does exist.

teka, pramis eto na huling hirit ng EK!

After spending the whole day at EK, we were invited with open arms at the Peria residence in Laguna. Not just open arms, but of course UNLIMITED SUPPLY OF FOOD! There's nothing like ending the day with lots of food. It was Ivy's birthday and nalibre kami sa kainan ng di oras! We enjoyed and communed with each other while eating, the food was superb! MGA Lechon manok, MGA tuna with onions, a fountain of rice (ang dami kasi), gulay, grapes, and bananas. Grabe sog-bu! While we were eating, super traffic sa kainan! Abutan ng mga ulam at kanin at inumin! Hehe! After eating, we were laughing our heads off because of the pictures we took while jumping. Each had a crazy look on their face. Isa na ako sa mga pinagdiskitahan! Haha! Sumunod na si RJ at Jwan, haha! Super gumugulong at tumatambling na kami sa kakatawa! It was indeed a momentous meal for us. Thank you so much Ivy for welcoming us to your humble abode and accepting us and our hungry stomachs. Of course, thank you to your mama and papa, and two brothers :) Mabuhay ka Ivy!

Grabe! Super saya namin! Here we are even late at night, we have the energy to jump at the facade of EK!
Meron kaming iniimitate na tao dito... Hmm... Haha! That's Jwan, me, and Teyet
Evening at the Rio Grande. Makikita rin dito ang hyperactive naming ugali, kahit gabi na, pose pa rin ng pose.
Laughtrip 'to! Hahah! May mga ginagaya rin kaming mga mukha eh, pero syempre, sikret! Haha!

Graduation pictures!

I realized how often I post pictures here at my blog, haha! Dibale, after nito, the next post would be all words :) By the way, our graduation was held June 17, 2006 at the PICC. Though it was memorable, it wasn't SUPER memorable. Maybe because there were a lot of graduates during this batch.

This was during our waiting time for the Baccalaureate mass and picture taking. Shot at the South Conservatory.
Inside the Most Blessed Sacrament Chapel, where the LaSalle Brothers during the Japanese occupation were believed to be massacred. Sightings of the brothers can still be felt and seen.
Kalokohan! At the PICC, fooling around during the ceremony.

eto na, eto na, eto na, waaaah!

As you can see, I posted yet again, pictures on my blog! Adik noh?! It's because I want to document all my memories, be it happy or sad, here at blogger.com. The block had its reunion, though some did not make it to the trip, last October 24, 2006. Grabe ang saya! As in super! It is really a blast seeing your friends again after a month of separation. Anyway, we paid 40 pesos to get in the 4D, which featured a very corny movie! Escape from Bane Manor was like, hello, highschool movie pa! Memorize na nga ni RJ! Hanggang dun sa mga daga, haha! Next up was the space shuttle! See our picture? RJ and me were at the front cart! The amazing part was when the queue lines were short, buti na lang!

The ride that we took advantage of the most was Rio Grande Rapids. Tatlong beses kami nag-ride, back to back pa yung last two. MEGA SUPER BASA kaming lahat! Everyone was soaking wet up to their underwear! Hahaha! We also tried Rialto, kung saan nahilo lang kami! E first ride pa naman yun. We also loved the bump cars, of course who wouldn't?

Anyway I have to sleep early, I'll just continue it tomorrow. Ay, meron pala akong LSS bukas... Hmm, I'll see if I can :)

Mga bumbay na nangongolekta, 5-6, 5-6, 5-6... Haha!
Booger, booger, kulangot! Kanta yan, would you believe? Eto ako, sinisinghot ng malaking ilong-na-tinubuan-ng-mukha na rebulto. Si Jwan naman, sinisipsip.
Ooh baby! Ride me!
Hwaaaaaw! Kami yan!

EK photos (hanep ang title, so plain..haha!)

I don't have the luxury of time to write my thoughts now, and it is said that a picture paints a thousand words. Here are the photos of our EK trip. kulang pa 'to!

This was the motley crew inside Rialto. Dami namin noh? ano 'to, highschool reunion? haha!

Jwan and me... Actually hindi ata ako ito e, mukhang hunyango... kasi ang ganda e... Hahaha!


Actually, these are not only the photos, super dami nito! Hindi ko kasi ma-upload, alangya... Check it out at www.crazychem.multiply.com. I'll try to upload more... I don't want the idea of my face sticking out of this blog.. Haha! 'till then!

What a weekend!

Well this entry is supposed to be dated way back October 22. I just had no time writing and publishing my post, hehe!

Mama and I went to Festival Mall to buy gifts for her dear friends. We went to the section where you can buy/create necklaces made of pearls or semi-precious stones. Guess what, we were just supposed to buy 2 sets of necklaces but ended up buying another one (that's for us), which was more expensive than the two! Nyek! Ano ba naman yun?! By the way, I was the one who designed the necklaces, yahoo! Maybe I'll have a future in creating jewelry designs! :D (naku edna nangarap ka pa!)

After that, we transferred to ATC since my Mama planned that we go buy office clothes. I was only going to buy slacks but then I couldn't resist the pretty outfits and ended up buying office capris and blouses (which I have sufficiently) and no slacks! isipin mo naman yun, walang pantalon e yun pa naman kailangan ko, duh edz... But I'm happy since I got new threads! Yahoo!

Nga pala, Bass America have these uber great shoes, color blue and white, na sobrang pinaglalawayan ko! hahah yuck! Next thing I know my saliva's all over it! Eeek!

Another discovery while shopping: I'm getting phat, este, fat-- as in mataba. Before I was a size small for the pants and blouse. Now, omigas abelgas! Medium na ko! It's not funny because I'm really gaining a lot of weight lately! Must it be my hormones? Oh no! I have PCO pa naman! Waaaa! The blouses are beginning to get snug and there's little room to breathe! I don't want to be a medium! Waaah!

Enough whining. It seems I cannot finish this blog since it's already 1am and I have work tomorrow! Matutulog na naman ako nito sa office e. Oh well, I was glad that shunga and I got to talk again :) (reunited 'cause it feels so good...) yeheees.... haha!

Next up: EK trip and what my father said: Lost money can be regained while lost time cannot be replaced.

more pictyurs!

Ayan sige! Pagsiksikan ang mga litrato! Haha! Ayan ako yelling DARNA!
Scientists on the prowl! Me and my environmental chemistry classmates going to Hundred Islands National Park to see the tridacna gigas
This is Jwan and me. Lyka's not around.
But if we combine forces, BIG THREE na ito!
yeah that's me! pampose na parang That's my boy! But in this case, that's my girl! hehe :)

Can we get together, I really, I really want to be with you

"Come on check it out with me, I hope you, I hope you feel the same way too."
--- Madonna's Get Together

Last October 20, I went to school to visit my friends. As I entered the University, I realized how much I missed the school. It's unusual because when I was still a student, almost everyday except Sundays, I was in school! Mostly consumed by my extracurricular work and during the later years, my thesis. I said to myself, "hindi ko mamimiss 'tong La Salle, lagi na lang kasi ako nandito." But lo and behold (Dr. Ilao naaalala kita! :) ), I did miss school! Haha! What an unusual feeling for me.

I got together with my younger college friends: Norman, Diana, and Mark. They were three of my closest friends in my last year as an undergraduate student, since almost 80% of the block had already graduated. It was because I intentionally delayed myself for two terms since I ran for the Student Council. We catched up on things to talk about, school work, work work, Diana's problem (her thesis and national debate championship tournament), love life, science life (anak ng patola ang baduy), and *secret*. I just missed them so much.

Yesterday we, Teyet, Bugoy, and Ian, went to Kuting's house in San Jose, Bulacan. We got together to celebrate the birthday of Kuting's older sister, Marnie, and younger brother, Mac. They also had their badminton court blessed and of course, all these mean one thing: ENDLESS FOOD SUPPLY! Haha! There was even a lechon baka! Ayos! Tiba-tiba kami sa pagkain and also sa beer, though I didn't have any. Syempre, bahagi sa buhay ng mga Pinoy kapag may party, eh may videoke! Non-stop singing for 5 hours! Haha! Also, a great breakthrough band, Blue Cheese (they won a radio band contest, yahoo! clap clap clap!), performed. The band members were still young! Grabe, nakaka-elib tunog nila. Pinoy Evanesence (oh no, tama ba spelling?) The vocalists, Lambert and Jean, really know how to put on a good show! Watch out for Blue Cheese's Frozen Universe song on your radio stations :)

But the most important "get together" for me was when my best friend and I had the chance to YM each other, October 19 (grabe YM lang pala! hehe). Nevertheless, it was still important. Tagal na namin hindi nagkakausap, ilang buwan na ba? Hehe. Well shunga, sembreak mo na, saan ba tayo nila Sunny and JC gimmick? :)

I did have a lot of "get together"s this week. I hope there will be more next week! Oh! There is! On Tuesday, October 24, it's Eid'l Ftir but my college blockmates and I are going out! Wahoo! Watch out EK! (haha ano ba yan, ang tanda na EK pa rin!)

See ya! :)

Dance with me...

"When the rainbow rythm starts to play, dance with me, make me sway..." after a 1.5 hour bout with the sultry and sexy music of latin jazz, it's hard to catch one's breath. Do that jazz walk! one-two, three-four, five and six and seven and eight! My teacher, Venus, really rocks on the dance floor. Sigh... with my age, it's hard to be like her, haha!

Before my dance class, of course I was at work. It was a bit tiring today--- no, make that really tiring. We had to pack 2,000 napkins (yes, 2,000 sanitary napkins) in a plastic bag, containing 10 pads per bag. Whoo. My back ached and ang utak ko! Naging lugaw na! I realized that factory workers must be really sick and tired, so sick and tired, super duper sick and tired, of doing the same thing, EVERY DAY. Imagine all you have to do the whole day, 8 hours straight with 1 hour break, is to (pack and pack and pack and pack...)^infinity. Wouldn't their brain just go to waste? Sayang naman ang pinag-aralan, sayang ang tiyaga at oras na maaaring ilaan sa mga mas mahahalagang bagay. Lahat ng ito, kinakagat ng mga Pilipinong nangangailangan ng pera--- perang pampabuhay sa pamilya. Haaay, nakakalungkot... Ay sows, lumalabas na naman ang dugong tibak ko...

Okay, let's move on to a new topic, it hurts the emotional side of me discussing that. Guess what, we have been experimenting this whole week for an in-store demo for one of the products we will launch! Grabe nakakapiga na utak ha.

Hmm.. gumagabi na... I'll talk to you tomorrow blog, goodnight! :)

pictyur!

Finally, I have uploaded a picture of myself! But I still don't know how to upload myself on the left side of this page! aaaargh!

My heart goes...

Sha la la la la! *clap clap clap* Sha la la la la in the morning... What a corny way of opening this blog, but a great way to start the day! Yahooo! I just feel oh-so-energetic this day! Guess where I am right now--- I'm at work, hehe! Again, I sneaked out from the lab, grabbed a bite to eat, and sat in front of the computer to post. I'm sorry if I wasn't able to write yesterday when I got home, I had my dance lessons. When I was at the studio, I felt sorry for this woman who was a new student in the class. While doing our routine, I could feel she was quite ticked off and obviously was not enjoying the class. It was because maybe our teacher did not bother to teach her so much and she was left alone to catch up. Poor woman... I could just imagine it was my Mama being left out. She was a bit old and had a paunch lugging onto her. I did try to help her out and asked if she would like me to teach her. Too bad, our class was going fast and I couldn't help her.

Hmm, any time now I may have to escape from you immediately, bwahaha! Haha! (I'm sorry!) My partner will call me any time soon... Oh well... I still have a wee amount of time.

Anyway, I have a story to tell you. Yesterday when I came home, my Mama handed me a book entitled Exorcism, which was written by a priest named Fr. Jocis Syquia. Sobrang natakot ako, as in major! Grabe!!! I was able to watch three exorcism flicks, The Exorcist, the prequel (or was it the sequel?) of the first Exorcist, and The Exorcism of Emily Rose. Being a science graduate student, of course I didn't belive in the exorcism movies, much more the effects that can be plugged into them. So while watching these movies, I may be laughing at some parts. (Haha, I can still remember them...) but when I read the book... to be continued on my next post... nabitin ka ba? Haha! :)

Po Na Na!

This word in the Carribean means That's Life! Wala lang, I just wanted to share my knowledge, haha charing! I'm at work right now, and I guess I am sneaking away from my duties since I'm here in front of the computer typing away. I was supposed to type in my life last night to you, dear blog. However, my older brother, Paolo was wasting his time playing Warcraft (well, not actually waste his time, but practice his "dexterity" through playing games in the internet, hay naku). Just sneaked out from the lab and I'm going back there na. Don't worry, I'll feed more of my thought to you later blog. :)

Oh yes it's my first time...

Hwow! "I can't believe i have my own blogspot!" I bet that is always the statement of the first-time people posting at blogspot, haha! Why did I start posting just now, when I have missed all the good times that rolled out of my life, my highschool and college life, and some extracurricular things going on in the side? *sigh* Do I have to reconstruct all of those memories and encrypt them into this blog? Hmm... *thinks* why not? Well, before doing that, I just have to write my thoughts first. I don't know anything about uploading pictures here at blogspot, I don't know how to change the settings, (you might be thinking, "what a computer illiterate girl!" i'm sorry!!!), i don't know how to jazz up my blog. Hwow, in short, I don't know anything but to write and post... Well, not bad for a first timer, haha!

I'll probably come back later and post some more. I'll alter the date so theoretically, I was writing before this date, wahaha! And also, after posting this, I would change my settings, yahoo! (with matching Oishi action under my chin!)